It’s been fun.

Friendship is a precious thing, and to take a friendship lightly is both reckless and ignorant.  I am not a perfect person, far from it in fact, but I do consider myself a pretty loyal person, although I’m positive that there are those that would disagree with me.  So needless to say I’ve spent a lot of time over the past few months thinking about who and what is important to me, and the answers weren’t surprising, but were slightly shocking.  You see, a long time ago in a galaxy not so far away most of my friends were just that, friends.  We hung out, drank beer (I like beer), talked, listened to music and enjoyed the company we kept.  Fast forward to the present, and while some of my old friends are still there (you know who you are), I realized that most of the people I called my friends were people that I made films with, people that expected something from me.  Actors that wanted to see themselves on the screen, crew members that wondered why they didn’t sound as important as someone else in the credits, and people that thought they could do a better job than I could any day of the week (they were probably right).  Some of these people are still and will always be my friends, but some of them once they realized that I might not release a film or a film might not come out like they hoped it would, decided that they didn’t need me anymore.  I’ll be the first one to admit that I can be difficult to work with.  OK, I can be pure hell to deal with sometimes, but I would never purposely set out to hurt anyone.  

 

Anyway, after about a month of driving myself crazy trying to figure out where I went wrong I finally came the point of no return.  I decided that with the exception of shorts that I can shoot with only myself as the crew, and work for the University, that I am giving up on filmmaking as a collaborative experience.  I have come to realize that I enjoy writing more than the act of making films and that my concentration in one area instead of many will yield better results.  So I started writing more reviews, I wrote about filmmaking and published on sites like www.filmmaking.net and www.creativefilm.org, and set out to write the best script that I can.  I decided that people are much more important than films, and because I don’t know how to separate myself from my work it’s probably best if I cut my losses early in the game.  Who knows, maybe one day I’ll get that feeling in my gut that won’t take no for an answer and I’ll be back behind the camera, but until then I want to tell everyone that I’ve worked with that it has been a fun ride, and I hope all of your dreams come true.  

 

I am working hard to focus on what’s important in my life and for those of you who are interested, this blog is going t be a testament to that change.  I am going to post my thoughts, rant about shit that makes me mad, give updates on my career, post links to my articles and document as much of my next year alive as I can.  

 

Thank you for your time,

 

Donny